EXPECTATIONS

My birthday is in less than a week away.  I have expectations that my husbands gestures this year should be grand due to last years indiscretions.  I have huge doubts that he will.  I think my brain is setting me up that way so that if there is failure, I am not let down.  A protection of sorts, but also a sabotage.  I hate, hate, hate that he had an affair.  Living with all this emotional garbage is trying in my brain.