Today I feel hopeful. I feel love in my heart. I hope that the love I think I see from my husband is true. It scares me when I feel it, I am fearful I will loose it again. I have to take in deep breaths and remind myself to stay in the now. Appreciate the now. Enjoy the love, don't worry about it. Brian's efforts to make me feel loved are noticed and so adored. When he texts me I am beautiful, when he randomly says hi, when he holds me, when he asks me to cuddle. I am thrilled. I feel secure, I feel loved, I feel like I have someone who cares for me and then I worry that it will be taken away. I take a deep breath. I exhale, and stare. I blow the dark away, even if only temporarily. Today I am hopeful and vulnerable and I am okay because being vulnerable makes me stronger.
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